The Battle

When I think I’ve won, I’ve lost again
It’s cold and dark in this world of sin
And full of regret
And I bet...you would never believe me
If I told you this secret I protect so freely
How many times can I lose the same battle
How many times can my thoughts shake and rattle
Just get back on the saddle
And try again
I wish this were fiction, this painful addiction
This drug all consuming, subconscious looming
Hypnotized from early on, toxic yet still going strong
Hostage locked up, key swallowed door stuck
Just my luck
Shivering cold, indecent, exposed, trying my best to keep composed
I scream from inside and I vow that next time
There will be no next time
So I wait and I promise and I think to myself
That I’ll stick to the plan that I've hidden so stealth
I’ll attempt to trick the captor quick
Steal away in a secondhand tick
Before I can try to cease my defenses
Or convince my thoughts there are consequences
So I wait for the right time...and commit my crime
I run so fast I pull away
But the shackles on my wrists they say,
Not so fast
You like it here remember? I’ve become your sweet surrender
Don’t forget what I do for you, how can you deny my love for you
And...
I hear the voice as she whispers softly,
Please come back I remember you fondly
Like a Siren she sings as I steer off course
Reminding me how gratified I am by her force
We’ll make it together I’ll get you through
When times get tough I know what to do
...for you
To make you happy, to make you strong
Her deceit was always my favorite song
And she sings it for me, when I need it the most
When no one else is there, she reveals my ghost
No one understands you like I do, no one loves you like I love you
I listen and...
I take her hand once again
I walk into the darkness, barely breathing in
Didn't you know that the road to hell
Is paved with good intentions...so I bid you farewell
Ashamed I can’t look anywhere but down
Walking the plank, no more solid ground
I step to the edge, with little caution
Fresh out of breath, from the exhaustion
The fall is long, the death of me
But this scare is my methamphetamine
And she holds me under as I begin to drown
Maybe I’ll do better the next time around

Lyrical Lessons From a Sibling

I had to postpone ‘til it was full grown but I’m in the zone now so watch it:

Hey Bro where you at I've got something to say
You shouted my way, shared your life (an array) and
To my own dismay I iced you out, Faberge
And I apologize
So here's what you deserve
A little love mixed with some swagger and swerve...

I don’t really know when you stole the show
Someday hiking Machu Picchu and exploring lands below
With a glimpse of adventure all signs turned to go
Then a little bro bro traded a little pro quo
And all of a sudden you were so hard core
Keeping up with the sis as we cleared the dance floor
Whether Garth or Doc Dre...Em too, we're Not Afraid
Got game to play, here to stay, crowd gets jealous Kid Cudi Make 'Em Say
OH, oh oh oh...
Head to toe: meticulous--your flow: ridiculous
Never been prouder, we connect like a router, the signal between us
Couldn't be any louder
No one’s been through, how me and you, do what we do, in our fam crew
We Stars--All...Little League and basketball
Diggin’ Charles Barkley-seven years old, from Suns to Rockets—hot to cold
Fighting since the days I wore my Barbie shirt
No matter what happened you always got hurt
I still don’t get it, don’t think I ever will
But mom he started it, I’m still the one you want to kill
Mom I swear, Jenny’s lying...next thing you know, Andy’s crying
Fighting over channels and over closed doors
Fighting over mom and dad wrestling on the floor
The time you turned and socked me when I was chasing you
We froze so quick it shocked us, didn’t know what to do
“Mom come quick I got her!” and then it hit the fan
I was seeing bright red that wasn’t in the plan

Competitors for life and still we're teammates too
Boggle, Sorry, Mille Borne, Uno, and Taboo
Ninja turtles, Splinter, the Little Mermaid dish
Power rangers, Duck Tales, Missy and the fish
Boxes of new cereal, hot cocoa and toast
Campfires, Santa Cruz, marshmallows we’d roast
The day I thought I taught you to read your first word
But you just had it memorized, please that's absurd
Sword fights, acrobats, forts in the living room
Never cleaning up it’s mom’s job we’d assume
My mind keeps flashing blue carpet bedroom
Nibbles, Rascal, Luigi-- pets in every room
Wish I spent my whole life standing up for you
It’s my only one regret, kid you know it’s true
By the time I realized that it seemed we switched roles
But it’s never too late, however this unfolds
So bubs through it all, you’re my favorite star
You always feel close evens though it’s too far
All that you are, all that you'll become
Can't you see the competition is useless for some
Not even fair they're compared to you in my my heart
They’ll never quite live up, but hey they can start...

Bro bro!!